Wednesday, February 23, 2011
Here Comes the Sun
And I say, it's all right!
I'm trying to see how many blog posts I can title after songs about sunshine. I have this fascination with the sun. I love the sun! Perhaps it comes from a few years in a basement bedroom with no windows. Now of course I absolutely LOVE the two windows in my bedroom, upon which I hung my most sheer Ikea curtains that let in as much light as possible.
Today Marni and I took a beautiful sunny though chilly walk. We went much further than I've gone in the past. I think that means I'm getting stronger. With a little more energy. Yahoo! Bring on the marathons! (Not really. Please no. Not now. Maybe later.)
Of course just as I feel like my back is recovering from last week's spinal tap, I go again tomorrow morning. I like to think I am going to get this stuff down. At least I'll be friends with all the people at interventional radiology! (especially the ones with the happy drugs)
I decided this morning that even when we don't have control over what's happening to our bodies, we always have some kind of control over the way we care for our bodies. I believe that we have been given a custodianship over our bodies in this life--and regardless of the disease or accident that may befall us, we have a responsibility to care and feed and rest and water these bodies. I am convinced that even with poisonous chemo running through my veins (and spinal sac!), I can eat the proper foods to provide my crazy body with appropriate nutrients, that it may heal and grow proper cells and blood and serve me throughout all my years.
I need this little body. I've got miles to go and I need to make sure I get there intact! Or at least taped together.