After a while you learn the subtle difference between
holding a hand and chaining a soul.
And you learn that loving doesn't mean leaning
and company doesn't mean always mean security.
And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts
and presents aren't promises.
You begin to accept your defeats
with your head up and your eyes ahead,
with the grace of a woman, not the grief of a child.
And you learn to build all your roads on today
because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans
and futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight.
After a while you learn that even the sunshine burns
if you get too much.
So you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul
instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.
And you learn that you really can endure
you really are strong
you really do have worth
and you learn
and you learn
with every good-bye you learn.
-Veronica A. Shoffstall
So there's a lot there I agree with (I'm not afraid to buy my own flowers!), a lot that I still am not sold on yet (I WANT to believe in my future and have it not fail in mid-flight and still be strong), and a lot that I'm learning (what is the difference between holding hands, kissing, and true, genuine commitment?!?). I feel a surprising gift of grace--and I look forward to see where it takes me.
And yes, I do have a sunburn... that's what happens on days you work from home and can work at the pool...